So tired and annoyed, my flatmates kept me up most of the night and I only had two hours sleep. Like by all means go out, get drunk, have a good time but ugh why do they have to come back screaming, knocking on everyone’s door, wake up the whole flat and play basketball down the corridor uggggggh I’m mad. When I go out, even if I’m completely drunk I always make a conscious effort to not wake everyone up, even the floor below complained this morning.
I don’t understand what I’ve done wrong. I’m terrified that I won’t find new housemates for the next year/s, it’s so difficult especially everyone has already formed their friendship groups and already decided who to live with. I’ve also received an email from the support system at my university offering me counselling and I don’t know whether to accept or not, I’m so nervous.
Everything is so unbelievably shit again and I can’t stop crying. I’m sorry for all these text posts, feel free to unfollow me.
Basically my flatmates have just sat me down for a talk and told me that they don’t want to live with me next year. I thought that we all got along and we were planning on getting a house together for university next year but there are 9 of us and only 8 bedroom houses and they’ve kicked me out of the group because they don’t get along with me as well as each other apparently. So now I’m so upset and worried because I have nobody to live with. The only other friend I have already has people to live with and her house is full. I literally don’t know what to do.
They have also arranged behind my back for me to see a councilor for my depression. That’s okay, they’re doing it to help but they could have at least told me.
I’m breaking down right now, everyone apparently hates me and I have nobody to live with and am being forced help